This week has been pretty intense. We had three exchanges this week, and it was kind of a wild ride. This transfer has been so different than other transfers with exchanges. We have quite a variety of sisters in the mission, with different situations and problems that require different types of attention. I've sometimes felt like I have no idea what to do or say to help them, but I've really felt the support of the Lord this week. In some situations I've felt like I've been teaching investigators as I've talked with the sisters. I've really felt the need to follow the Spirit and understand what the Lord wants these sisters to hear to be able to overcome their problems and answer their questions. It's been very humbling and has opened my eyes to the importance of doing the Lord's work in the Lord's way, even among His missionaries.
We had a great zone leader council this week. Since it's the end of the year, we got the opportunity to review the mission's efforts over the past year and think about our baptismal goal for the coming year. We were discussing our numerical goal together as a council and eventually the time came to decide on what the goal would be. As we were talking about our mission baptismal goal, I felt very strongly the sacredness of the work that we're doing. This is the work of salvation, and the goal we set for baptisms represents our vision and efforts to bring souls unto Christ. As we were about to set the goal, my wonderful companion raised her hand and asked if we could kneel to pray as a group before we set the goal. She offered the prayer, and I think all of us could feel the strength of the Spirit encouraging us and helping us to see and feel that the Lord is ready for His work to move forward, and that we are to be a part of that work. It was an incredible experience in seeking revelation and understanding the Lord's will.
We also got to help a lot with a Relief Society activity this week. The sisters took bread and a Christmas message around to all the less-active sisters, and then had a posada (basically a Christmas party) on Saturday. It was great to see the ward get together and be more unified. And it was also great to see that Latinos know how to party! :) I love them and their energy and spirit. Someday I'll be able to really party with them, but for now I'm content to just watch.
Our area has been struggling a little and our teaching pool is low. We've been blessed to be able to find more new investigators than usual, but none of them have turned out to be solid. I feel more motivated than frustrated, which is good. The Lord is preparing people to receive the gospel. Like we talked about in zone leader council this week, the Lord is ready to hasten His work, and all we have to do is show Him that we're ready too. I feel like there's a lot of growing I need to do right now. I've been working hard, but I need to progress more in my ability to do His work in His way, not just in the way in which I'm used to doing it. I'm glad to have a great companion who is willing to have that as her goal as well. Poor Hna. Jensen has been very, very sick this week, but she is a trooper and has continued to put her shoulder to the wheel, even with three exchanges this week. I'm really grateful for her. Please keep praying for her and her health. (P.S. I'm doing a lot better and feel almost at 100% again, thankfully!)
I feel immensely blessed to be a part of this work, and all I want to do is to give everything I have to Heavenly Father and the work of salvation. I think back to the beginning of my mission, a little over a year ago, and how doubtful I was that I should even be on a mission. At that point, the thought of 17 more months of feeling inadequate and overwhelmed was almost too much for me. Now I feel like time has passed too quickly. The Lord has been merciful in helping me change my heart and learn how to submit to His will, and in helping me grow. I have honestly never felt more satisfied or happy in my entire life. I feel that like the Savior said, in losing my life for the sake of His gospel, I have saved it (Mark 8:35). Better said, He has saved it.